I Wanna Do This Right...

I wanna do this right this time God. Im tired of messing up. Lord thank you for using me even though I am a screw up. God I wanna do this right this time. Lord help me to do it right this time. Lord forgive me for all of my mistakes. Lord continue to teach me through my mistakes and please continue to love me without reason. It is only your love and your grace that gets me through these things. Lord I wanna do this right, Im ready for a change and yet dont know how to change. Im ready for a change and yet scared to change. Im ready for a change and yet dont want to change. God change me. Lord I want to do it right this time. God Im scared to death yet Im so ready for it. I know you do not give us a spirit of fear so that fear is coming from some where for some reason. But I dont really notice it most of the time. It is only when I am truly honest with you and with myself that I realize oh man Lord Im terrified but excited to see what youre gonna do with this. Lord I want to do this right, help me to do it right this time. God speak to me, now and at a camp and when we come home. Be real loud and real clear with me on this matter. You know how dense I am Lord. God I need you in my life more and more and I want you in my life more and more. More this minute than even 30 seconds ago my Jesus. Lord how much have I ruined by all of my mistakes? God Im not sure I want an answer to that, just help me to get on the right track and stay there for good. You know me Lord, you know my heart. You know that over the past couple of weeks Ive prayed more than ever before about this. Lord I have a hard time thinking about anything else. Lord I need clarity because my Lord I do not want to mess this up. I wanna do it right this time! Im tired of beating my head against a brick wall over and over again, Im tired of making the same mistakes and learning the same lessons over and over again. satan you have no power over me, I will not fear for my future is decided, you have no hold over me for I am washed in the blood of Jesus, you will not defeat me, victory has been promised, get behind me satan because quite frankly you suck!