Work

I seriously wonder if I made the right decision. When I worked for the bridge program through city of Lodi I didnt really mind going to work most days. Now working for the bridge program through LUSD I dread going to work most days. I wonder if changing over was the right decision. I prayed that God would only open the doors He wanted me to go through. It seemed like this was completely God. He was providing more money through this job, which I would need to start paying off loans from Bible College. It offered insurance, which I needed so desperately. But I really dont like my job all that much anymore. I havent fallen in love with these kids at all. None of 'em really. I loved all the kids at Nichols. I loved all the little brats at Reese. Even though I hated Beckman I still fell in love with a few of the kids. But here at Borchardt...none of em really. Maybe I need to just give it some more time. I dont know. Ugh! It seems like it has been "one of those days" every day ever since I started this job. Is the money worth it is a question that comes to mind. I guess only time will tell. My devotional this morning talked about learning to focus on God in hard times. My random "daily reminder from God" on my home page also talked about focusing on God in hard times. Maybe I need to take a hint. God help me to focus on You in the midst of the chaos that happens at work. I will stay there as long as you want me to. Help me to not get so stressed out about things. Help me to remember You are still God, still good and still on the throne. No matter what, you are with me. Thank you Lord! I love you!